>You live, you learn...

>I've been angry the past several months at a friend of mine, today I finally realized why. She was/is doing the same things I've done in the past that caused me more heartache than any human being should be allowed in a lifetime. When we love someone we want to spare them pain, I didn't want her to repeat the patterns/mistakes I've made. That's what is so wonderful and yucky about life, we have to learn things for ourselves. No matter how much I want to warn her, or try to convince her about what to do - I can't. It's her life, to make decisions, to make mistakes, or to do what she feels in her heart. No one could have changed my decisions or convinced me, why do I think what I have to say makes any difference? All I can do is do what all of my wonderful friends did, allow me to make my own decisions and be there in case my heart hurts later...

I've always heard the things you dislike in others are the things you dislike about yourself. I never believed it fully until today. I was angry at her and really only angry at myself. Of course she knows this, took me longer. Apparently no matter how much I think I've moved on from my past, I'm still embaressed by some of my past choices. In the end, that's what's so great - they're mine. ;) In the words of Alanis (Morisette in case you aren't on a first name basis, as in my case)...you live, you learn.

Today I'm grateful for locksmiths, shopping malls, and BFFs.